Sad

So last night I babysat for these 2 kids. Justin is in the Elder's Quorum Presidency so that means I get to do stuff like that all the time. But this time was interesting. The family is totally inactive. And very unstable. I babysat for a 5 year old girl and a 2 week old girl. Both of the children were dirty. The 5 year old is very obviously emotionally disturbed. She swears and has very bad manners. But she and Caroline played well. And Caroline is a good girl. She would say things like, "instead of saying that bad word, why don't you just use a better one?" And when the girl yelled at Hilton to go away she said, "Instead of yelling at Hilton, why don't you say, Hilton please go play somewhere else for a while?" I was so proud of my little girl. Something is connecting when I teach her! The thing that broke my heart though is this teeny tiny baby. She was premature, the mom smoked the entire pregnancy, and both parents smoke in the house. I have absolutely NO problems with people who don't go to church. That is totally fine, but when they put their children at risk by smoking and drinking and doing drugs, it ticks me off. This baby reeked of smoke. I just held her the whole time. When the father came to pick her up, he asked how she was, and said he was sorry because she is colicky and cries all the time. She didn't cry once for the entire 4 hours I had her. I told Justin I just wanted to keep those kids forever and love them. It made me so sad to give them back...