New Haircut

So here is my new haircut for those of you not on facebook.  I think I am loving it because people keep asking me if I have lost weight.  Yea!   I will take that!  Maybe I need to keep my hair like this forever!  But I am pretty sure it is just the cut and the fact that I don't have my glasses on.  When I take a picture with my glasses there is always a big glare.  I am not wearing any makeup either, so maybe that is why people think I have lost weight...  I have lost some, but not enough for people to notice yet...

Missin' Mardi Gras

Well, Mardi Gras has come and gone.  I feel very homesick for my little slice of Cajun Country.  I was thinking about how last year we were at the parades with my  mom when she visited and we were just wearing some long sleeve shirts.  It was quite warm.  It is not too bad here.  Just at freezing.  But there is a lot of snow on the ground and I am thinking that Spring will not be showing its face anytime soon.  I am feeling a little homesick for my Louisiana ward, my Louisiana friends...  but I must say that even though I miss that Louisiana food...  it is better off in Louisiana. 

All by myself

I have been working on getting healthy and it is not an easy task.  In the morning when I am trying to exercise Lorelai is either crying for me to sit on the couch and read with her, or she is climbing all over me when I am trying to do push-ups.  So far I have lost 14 lbs.  I feel like I have lost weight because my clothes are a little looser...  but this change just seems to be taking forever.  I have weeks where I lose nothing at all.  This is very discouraging.  I am also not great at staying on an eating plan. I always start out really great in the morning, but by mid--afternoon, I have forgotten to eat and I am ravenous.  So what ends up happening is that I either don't eat enough, or I eat something totally unhealthy.  This has been a struggle my entire life.  I know it will be.  I just wish that it did not have to be so darn hard.  I wish I could see a little more progress a little faster.  I am really trying to do something here.  I just wish the support were there.  I know that those who read my blog support me.  That is not the issue.  I know that my family wants to support me.  I know that the Lord is supporting me.  So why does it feel so lonely?  This is something that only I can do.  When it comes right down to it, only I can monitor what I put in my face.  Only I can make sure I get up and work out.  It is only me who can keep track of my calories.  It is just me.  So no matter how many people are supporting me...  it is still up to me.  That kind of stinks.  Most of the time I like to be in control.  If I want it done right, I will just do it myself.  The one time when I don't want to do it myself, is when I have to.  So I am working on it.  I am frustrated and angry.  I want to feel good.  All I can do is do it all by myself.

My hair

I am done with this haircut.  I don't like it anymore.  It is too shaggy for me.  I like lots of curls or straight edges...  But I have to hang in there until next pay day.  I want to grow my hair out, but I just cannot stand my hair being like this any longer.  Maybe I can shave my head...  no I would worry that I have too many bumps and moles all over my head.  I should get extensions.  My sister has amazingly beautiful long hair.  I want my hair to be like that right now.  I don't know what the girl did when she cut my hair, but my curl is gone.  She thinned out my hair a lot...  a lot, a lot.  It has never been this thin ever.  I am wondering if that cut all my curl out.  Will it grow back?  How long will it take?  Maybe I should just start being a hat person.  I would need to buy hats, though.  That would defeat my whole, not spend money goal...  Right now, I want to get a puppy.  My mom's friend breeds Shih Tzu's and is having a litter in February.  I want one of those dogs.  I have wanted a dog for a long time, but we never knew if we would be moving or having more kids, or whatever.  So now that we are done having kids and done moving (at least staying in this town,) I want a dog.  Justin is opposed to this idea.  But has said that if I pay off this blasted computer...  Then I can get it...  they would be ready in April.  So I am going to do it.  That means, no hats.  My hair feels like straw.  I want to have soft, pretty hair again...