Accident

My dad was in a motorcycle accident last night. I do not know all of the details except that he is in the hospital and alive. His foot was severed, but they did reattach it, but they are not sure if he will be able to keep it. He has to have another surgery today. He needs a bone graft and a skin graft. I am upset b/c noone called me. I have not spoken to my sister in several months because of issues I don't care to mention and she did not call me because of this. So I am the last one to know and this upsets me. But I am going to write this and let it go. There is no sense in dwelling on it in anger when my dad is in the hospital. This is a disaster. With Justin's dad just passing away, and now this... and this mess with this gal... I don't really know how much more I can take. I am being prepared for a really horrible thing. I just know it. I cannot imagine what would be much more horrible than what has already happened, but I will try not to think about it. Meanwhile, I worry about my mom and dad. They have had enough happen to them lately! I wish I could be there to take care of my dad. If I had stayed in Utah I could have gone down there. Now there is absolutely no way for me to go back. Anyway, this is more of a ramble than a definite blog entry. Sometimes you just have to get it out. I wish I were a stronger and more benevolent person. I wish I could handle these things without freaking out. I wish I could be kind and forgiving and willing to do anything for anyone. I wish I were more Christ-like. Maybe these things wouldn't happen to my family. I don't know. I know that is not rational thinking... but you know... sometimes you just gotta vent. Ok, I will keep everyone updated when I can.